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I had a Daughter once - It was you. I knew you when you were still a baby. I watched you blow out the candles on your second year birthday cake. I helped you conquer your fears, you were afraid of walking in the super market, you didn't want your feet to touch the ground. You were afraid of the water, the beach, the vaccum cleaner, and many other things. I read and sang to you every night. Brought you everywhere with me, you called me mom. I defended you from quack doctors and therapists, taught you how to plant flowers, put you on the bus to pre-school and cried. I would have jumped off a cliff for you in a second. You may never read this. But it broke my heart to leave you, I think when your are older we will be able to talk about it. I wish I could have taken you with me but that was not possible. I saw you this year after almost 4 years of absence. It thrilled me that you remembered me and were happy to see me. Every day I miss you and every day I think of the future- that you will grow up and may want to know me. I know that you are happy where you are. But I know you will not be a child forever and when you get older no one will be able to hold you back if you want to seek me out. I will be here. I will be 100% percent ready for you and there will always be room in my heart for you. Ive allways loved you and will never stop. :) -Josie